Monday, December 6, 2010

Me, Controlling??

Okay, so yeah, I'm a bit of a control freak.  I fully admit to it.  Since getting married, I've gotten a lot better, since I can see that when dealing with other people there are things you just can't control.  And being a mom of a toddler, whew!  I can't control this little person with her own mind, that's for sure.  But what I could control, I did. 

And now, after being in the hospital for over a week, with two more weeks on the horizon, I have had to give up even more control.  I still have my etsy shop open because it's the holidays, my busiest time.  I've had Brendan bring everything over so I can package it up and then have him send it out.  He brought the wrong business cards and didn't remember the return address labels.  He brought the bigger envelopes instead of the smaller ones.  And I had to deal with it.  No control.  He's doing me a favor, I need to shut my mouth!

Brendan's parents were here this weekend and one night Brendan came to the hospital and had them watch Ingrid.  At first the plan was to put her to bed and then come over, but he came early and said he'd left Grandma in charge of bath and bedtime.  I was shocked!  No one but my mom or Brendan or I have ever put her to bed I don't think!  At first I was all nervous like do you really think they can do it??  But alas, Ingrid can be bathed and put in her pjs by someone other than me...She fell right asleep and what do you know, she's still alive to tell the tale.

It just got me thinking how I never ever think to leave Ingrid with anyone but my mom.  I always think she'll have too hard of a time and things won't be done just the right way, and it scares me.  But then when I have no control and see things going just fine, it makes me stop and think and, frankly, breathe a sigh of relief.  If we want to get a babysitter, we could.  She'll be fine.  She's a resilient little kid, and she loves us but doesn't necessarily need us 24/7.  Stupid as it sounds, that has been a real eye opener. 


Carly said...

So glad you are hanging in there! It's hard for me too to watch people do this "their way" Everyone always lives,but it's not my way!

MaryAnne said...

I think it's awesome that you are running your etsy shop from your hospital bed!

All three of my kids are fine being left with pretty much anyone now, but I still can't bring myself to hire a babysitter!

arwen_tiw said...

You sound like you're staying pretty cheerful! I'm a terrible patient too lol, so big hugs and hoping you are allowed home for your bed rest. xxx

Big brother, Little sister. said...

Amber, thinking of you being no coubt bored in hospital! take care.
Oh I can so relate to that post and not silly at all! I am really glad you have raised such a beautiful resilient daughter xx