It's been a week of school so far and Ingrid is not liking it. She started with five half days at 3 years old, which she loved. She would run right to the door, wave good bye and never ever cried. Ever. Same thing last year, she'd find a friend on the playground and run to the door when the bell rang, with barely a glance in my direction. This year, it's been nothing but tears.
K5 is all day. She eats lunch and then they have an afternoon session and are let out at 2:30. This shouldn't be a big deal, I feel like, because when coming home at lunch time, she always seemed bored in the afternoon. She doesn't nap, she barely rests, she would always be doing something while I laid down with Otis. So why not do this at school? Where you get to have fun and do art and gym? I don't know, something about it rubs her the wrong way.
So we have tears.
Ingrid is also riding the bus home most days, as Otis is napping and I don't want to wake him up and drag him to school. The first day she was SO EXCITED about it. Then it became a little scary, and now it's full blown anxiety about riding the bus home, wake Otis up, come get me, I'm scared, I don't know anyone on the bus, I'll get lost, it's too hard. No matter how I tried to spin it, she wasn't having it. Ugh.
Yesterday from the time she got off the bus to the time she went to bed, she cried. She worried about school, staying all day, missing me, taking the bus home. Every time she'd calm down, suddenly she'd think of something else to worry about. It breaks my heart. I don't know how to help her! I feel so helpless, I just tried to tell her she's strong, she can do this, it will get easier. I tried to have her imagine happy things and focus on the good things about school, like her friends and getting chocolate milk for lunch. I got another mom to bring her home instead of taking the bus. Nothing seems to make her feel better. So then I get sick of hearing the same thing over and over and I lose my patience like a bitchy mom and just say forget about it! You don't have a choice, you are GOING to school! And then she cries harder.
Why on earth is she so upset this year?? When she is home, she's sassy and bored and complaining about everything, so I don't really know why she wants to stay home. It's not like she's having any fun here...I end up yelling at her all the time. Blah! I wish I could say never mind, we'll homeschool, like I did when she was 3, but I don't want to have her home. She's in a great school that has a huge wait list, we are so lucky to be at this school! And I don't want to be a teacher. I don't want to homeschool. I don't even want to unschool, this summer SUCKED, she was so crazy and I felt like physically and emotionally drained at the end of each day.
Send us some good vibes that school will cease to be a thing she stresses about! I'm not sure how much more I can take.